The other night, I had one of those bad nights. One of those nights where I was overcome by emotion and I just needed to shed some tears. So I put in my go-to girlie movie, Moulin Rouge. I adore that movie. The filming, the music, the costumes, the love story. I love everything about it. I can watch it over and over again. And every single time I watch it, even though I know what’s coming, I cry. I just can’t help it. It’s such a beautiful story of two people finding one another and their belief in love. A love that will live forever. And in the movie, Christian, the English writer who is drawn to France by the Bohemian revolutionary ideal says this beautiful line when asked if he believes in love: “Above all things I believe in love. Love is like oxygen. Love is a many-splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love.”
And after that night, where I ended up a hot mess of tears and snot, I realized it. Christian was right. All you need is love. And clearly, I needed the love of my farmer. And although, I have his heart and he has mine. 1,500 miles separates us while I work through our busy season back in California. Living without him every single day really is like trying to live without oxygen. I kept saying to myself and to others that if I kept my faith in love, if I kept believing in love that maybe.. just maybe a trip to North Dakota may be possible before I move there in July. After all, it was already shaping up to be a LONG two and a half months apart, both for me and my farmer. Maybe it was the emotions or maybe it was meant to be, but this crazy idea started forming in my head. Being that Memorial Day weekend is coming up, I was going to plan a whirlwind trip to North Dakota.
And although all aspects of it seemed crazy and like it would never work out…. Guess what.. It worked. I know it’s been said to never underestimate the power of love and I am now a believer. So although my trip to North Dakota will require me getting up at 3 in the morning to head to the airport and putting me back in California around midnight a few days later, although we are receiving our first batch of fair animals this week and chaos will ensue, and although the ticket was basically a fortune… None of that matters. In a few days, I get to spend two nights and just about three days with my farmer. And to me, that means the world! From the outside it would seem that everything should be playing against us, but it worked out. So Sunday morning right around the time the sun comes up, I will be on a plane flying to see the love of my life, ready to breathe in that oxygen that we call love.
I cannot believe this is the life I am living. I am so blessed. I am so lucky. Just knowing that in a few days time, I will be reunited with Sunflowerfarmer has given me such a peace of mind, even if its only for a few days. Sometimes it feels as though my dreams more and more continue to become my realities. I cannot believe this is happening! Somebody pinch me!
You know you’re in love when you don’t want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. ~Dr. Seuss.