Well it’s been over a full week since I’ve left North Dakota and I would have never thought that this born-and-raised girl from California would be saying this but… I miss North Dakota! The wide open spaces, painted sunset skies, people waving at me while I drive down the road, but mostly I miss my farmer.
Whether I was aware of it or not, something happened while I was in North Dakota.. A change occurred. The place I identify as home shifted. I guess the age old saying “home is where your heart is” is indeed true. Because my heart is in North Dakota with my farmer and that has indeed become my home.
I didn’t really realize this change until I arrived back in California after spending an extended time in North Dakota. It felt so weird being back here. Something about being back at “home”, just doesn’t feel right and it didn’t even before I met Mark. I was happy in my old life but I didn’t have a passion for the future, mostly because I didn’t know what path I wanted to take. It’s amazing how once you find the life that you were meant to live, you can’t imagine living any other way. Now that I’ve experienced day in and day out with Sunflowerfarmer, I can’t imagine living life without him. We give each other passion for the future and life in general. We dream big. We set goals. And together, we will move towards accomplishing those dreams and goals.
And although I am enjoying spending some time back with my family, the life I was previously living, here in California, has lost its luster since returning. And to be honest, it doesn’t matter what physical place we may be living whether it be North Dakota, California, or even another country. What matters is that I spend my days with him even if it’s only a few hours after he comes home late from work, in the morning for 15 minutes, or spending lunch in the planter/spreader/combine. Through the good days and the bad days, with him is where I long to be. Through it all, my heart belongs to him and his to me. I find so much comfort in knowing that. People always told me, “when you know, you just know”. A life with him is the life I know I was meant to live. By his side, his hand in mine… my heart and soul knows this is the life meant for me.